Healing the Masculine and Feminine Within

As Venus and Mars both transit through Libra and the Sun through Scorpio leading up to an extra Venusean Full Moon on Friday the 3rd, I have a sort of confession to make. It is relative to topics recently circulating about mistreatment by men toward women. I’m not denying the very real abuse that occurs but rather wish to make a special statement of gratitude toward certain men and certain types of men in general.

There are many men in my life who have made a huge impact on my overall growth and I would like to say thank you, wherever you are. I’d also like to share a bit of my story with women, just because it seems relevant to the times we’re in.

First, don’t get me wrong and think this is some sort of sappy “I love men” post. This is no way ignores the betrayal, minimization, and violations that women have experienced on this earth. Also, I’ve had my share of all-out verbal brawls with asshole alpha males and told creepy men to back off in no uncertain terms on multiple occasions.

Truth be told, when I look at the overall picture of where I’ve been, it is men who have helped me through the hardest of times. I simply wouldn’t be who and where I am today without all these magnificent and gifted men. Most of my mentors, healers, teachers, protectors, allies and benefactors in this lifetime have been men. This was not at all what I looked for or expected but has been a huge contradiction to my childhood impression of men being big scary monsters rather than humans with caring hearts. Maybe that’s why they have showed up for me in such amazing ways, to slowly dissolve the overwhelming feeling of disdain and distrust I had toward them. Even the jerks in my path have taught me extremely valuable lessons that have made me stronger in every way.

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Women who have been abused by men, I totally hear you and feel that pain. During a high school phase I thought was a feminist because I didn’t care for guys in general but dreamt of being like Xena warrior princess. Then I realized I wasn’t truly feminist because most women annoyed me to fucking bits and I just hated people, period. My growing hatred toward humanity as a whole is part of what made me sick to near-death. The anger and disgust I felt became immobilizing to my body, not for a few days but for a few years.

Throughout the years I’ve seen some women use and abuse men as their work/money or sex slaves and manipulate them in other horrible ways. Objectification swings either direction (and children are treated even worse) but that’s not something we are comfortable talking about in our PC culture. It’s a god awful thing to behold, as awful as any other type of domestic or relationship abuse. What a hell of a world we live in.

But here’s my main point…

Although each of us has both feminine and masculine qualities, the more we as women can appreciate, respect and adore the masculine qualities of men the more they can appreciate, adore and respect our feminine qualities and support us in general. Part of enabling this to happen is to allow men to be imperfect (all within reason – not talking about psychopathic disorders here) while also recognizing our own imperfections and working toward improvement. Instead of victimization or violence, conversation may arise.

Effective relating to others in general is a type of skill that takes practice. For instance, rather than attacking a man for what I perceive as a huge character flaw I personally have to ask myself, do I contribute to this flaw in some way, and if not, how can I quiet this reactivity within myself that perhaps stems from prior abuse, so that rather than conflicts a new level of understanding may arise? Self-defense against attack is another matter, but the first step is to avoid any attacks to begin with.

In situations where one is being taken for granted in a relationship, it is equally important to know when to walk away – when to stop giving and giving for nothing but heartache in return.

As we cultivate greater self-respect, the idiots begin to fall away or lessen in numbers. Those true and graceful men who are willing to show up or step up will do so. The more we authentic we are with each other, the more space is allowed for our best qualities to shine. Then a true healing between the sexes can begin.

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Eclipse madness & massive change

Recently I have been asked where my horoscopes have gone and if I still do astrological updates. In short, a certain chapter of my work in this regard is done, as I have other work to focus on now. My astrological practice is still active and I’m still available to do readings, whether they include astrology or not. A friend just asked what my thoughts on the August 21st solar eclipse are.  So here goes:

Starting with the obvious, whether people believe in the astrological aspect or not eclipses are triggers for tremendous stress and change, both personal and global. They can be ominous or inspiring.

Will something bad happen? Yes, of course it’s already happening. I don’t care to elaborate, partly because there is enough of it to go around on the web.

You might also be noticing great shifts occurring in your physical bodies in relation to the Earth. How many of us rest and move in our bodies is changing very rapidly and radically, in part due to the changes occurring on this planet. There are influences within our planet’s sub-structures and off-planet objects influencing these changes.

The Solar Eclipse is in the late degrees of Leo. This can inspire us to bring out our best, boldest self and share our gifts with the world. It poses the question, to who or what does one give or receive authority – and what impact does this make?

(the questions below are not addressing anybody in particular)

Do you bow down? Do you demand an audience or naturally gain one through charisma? Do you give extra power to political clowns and blame everything wrong that happens in the world on them?

The polarity of Leo & Aquarius – do you ever acknowledge the sources of your inspiration, that from which you came from (stars and sky) those who have come before you, those who gave you the tools or assistance to carry on or better yourself? Some people love to credit their family, friends, lovers, teachers and benefactors where due, and others prefer to claim all credit – never acknowledging who encouraged them or gave them the ideas and means to achieve something. Conversely, most of us place blame on others hands down. Not many of us choose to take responsibility for our mistakes and how they contributed to something awful.

Leo’s opposite sign, Aquarius – in what way and to what or who do you see yourself as being connected? We are all different expressions of life but in the “big picture”, we are also connected. It’s interesting to see all of the different facets that make the whole of the human race, not to mention the animal and plant kingdoms.

In a worst-case emergency situation on planet Earth, do you think that anyone’s personal beliefs and political views would even matter? Sometimes, when things seem really out-of-control this thought helps put things in perspective. How does one actually survive and relate not only to other humans in this world to but the Earth itself? How one relates to the Earth will color and shape the rest of one’s life and relationships. Is the relationship contractive or expansive?

An eclipse brings massive change. Some resist it, others dive in. The symbolic energy of an eclipse may be likened to a combination of the Tarot cards The Hanged Man and The Tower. One is, or many are forced to surrender and can’t know exactly what will happen next. “The only thing certain is that nothing is certain”  – to quote whoever came up with this. Things are falling down, coming undone at full speed. Whether this is beneficial or harmful depends on a lot of other factors. There is some degree of choice involved, which begins with an angle of perception.

Are decisions made from fear or love? Sometimes, it can be far more potent and adventurous to be propelled by questions rather than to assume the answers.

 

New Moon in Sagittarius – Embracing Life’s Battles

“The world as we have created it is a process of our thinking. It cannot be changed without changing our thinking.”  – Albert Einstein

The New Moon is at 7 degrees of Sagittarius on November 29th. It forms an exact conjunction with asteroid Juno, and a square with Neptune and the Lunar Nodes. In Sagittarius, the combined influence of the luminaries with Juno highlights partnerships and unions based on higher values, nurturing of the intellect, respect for each other’s differences and a passionate search for truth. Its dark side, especially in stressful aspects involving Neptune entails self-righteousness, religious and/or political fanaticism, inappropriate or misguided self-sacrifice, deception and victimization.

Neptune has been a year-long influence due to a square by Saturn in Sagittarius since August 2015, now fading in effect. The Neptunian themes of delusion, confusion, psychic pain and past life review are not over however, as Saturn and Chiron, the Wounded Healer in Pisces move into a square to be fully activated in the new year of 2017. The wounds that were not healed, the debris that was not discarded, the lies that were only partially uncovered and the memories that were stirred this past year are drawn up yet again with this New Moon and in the weeks ahead.

Venus in Capricorn forms a square with Uranus and Ceres in Aries. This and along with the four planets (Sun, Moon, Saturn, Mercury) in Sagittarius calls for radical honesty and a heavy price to pay for deceit. Much of this has already been going down in the political arena and the dominoes will continue to fall over the next few months. Intense conflicts and opposing views can cause separations and loss on a grand scale.

Sagittarius favors culture and expanded education. Like all fire signs, this one does not shrink away from challenge but embraces it wholeheartedly. Whenever this sign is emphasized, more of us dare to think and do things that were previously not known or comfortable. What is something you have long wanted to do that you’ve been afraid of initiating?

Every now and then the words of one of my great-grandmothers resounds in my memory:

“Life is constant battle!” she would exclaim after telling a story, particularly in relation to surviving the Armenian genocide…

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…but I remember her as a happy little lady, ever-so-loving and grateful for all that life had blessed her with. As I grew older, I began to truly understand her words more clearly and adopted them as a sort of mantra, especially in situations that seemed extremely bad or good. This mantra reminds me that things can always be a lot worse, not to rest on my laurels, never to settle for less than what I deem as worthy and just, and that if life’s not a “bitch” in some way, shape or form I must be overlooking or doing something wrong.

Contrary to New Age belief, people don’t automatically change their reality by ignoring what’s ugly and only reciting positive happy affirmations to themselves (as if they are trying super hard to drill them into their thick skulls). Believe me, I tried all that as a teen and it didn’t work. It began to feel like a form of denial and it eventually became evident that denial only leads to escapism, addiction and self-pity. What did work was accepting this life as battle, putting on my armor, picking up my spear and going forward full tilt.

I’m not sharing any of this as gospel, but just as my own personal philosophy and experience. It also seems relevant to the Times. When one acknowledges life’s battles for what they are, there is no more room for complaining. There is only choice in how to engage or give up. Accepting the reality of battle, of hardship and of hell on Earth was actually liberating for me. It meant that I no longer held onto false promises or waited for approval and rewards from others. I gave up hope for “lollipops”, pats on the back, gold stars and Nirvana. Suddenly, so much came into focus.

Whatever principles one adheres to ultimately shape life’s experiences for better or worse. These principles can be positive or negative, religious or not, inclusive or exclusive. What really matters is what results they produce both internally and externally. Do these results weigh on the side of healing or destruction? Enlightenment or ignorance? Dishonor or valour?

“Stand for something or you will fall for anything.”

Some more questions to ask during this Sagittarius New Moon (there are no Right or Wrong answers – just food for thought):

What are you seeking for and why?

What are you fighting for and why?

What are you holding on to and why?

Whose thoughts are you thinking? Why?

 

Autumn Equinox 2016

The Autumn Equinox on September 22nd is significant and potent in several ways. This time of year always highlights a period of harvest and closure on certain levels but that which is being brought to the surface of collective consciousness now is unlike what has been experienced in many years. Part of this is because of what is still being assimilated due to the past three eclipses in a row.

Mercury will have just gone Direct (since its Retrograde motion on August 30th) at 14 degrees Virgo the night before the Equinox forming an exact trine to Pluto in Capricorn, as Pluto slows down to turn Direct on September 26th. Days ago, the building of this aspect began to greatly heighten communications and perceptions on this and subtle planes of existence.

The Sun enters Libra and forms a conjunction to Jupiter and the Super Galactic Center (2 degrees of Libra), which may generate effects involving massive reorientations within relationships through the rest of September. Jupiter entered this area right around the Lunar Eclipse in Pisces on the 16th. The relationship areas undergoing reevaluation and change may involve any ranging from romance to business endeavors, legal contracts, family issues and friendships to group dynamics. There is great potential for healing and reunification, but for some there may also be an upsurge of deep pain. One of the greatest gifts offered by this transit is that of an increased ability to release baggage and sorrow around both past and present relationships and to come to a clearer understanding of multi-layered interactions.

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Mars at 26 degrees Sagittarius is conjunct the Galactic Center and the asteroid Lachesis, named after the second of the 3 Fates of Greek Mythology as she who measures the thread spun on Clotho’s spindle and determines the Destiny of any given life before it is snipped at by the third Fate, Atropos. This may indicate intense encounters and experiences of a psychic or super-conscious nature that seem fated, meant-to-be, or inescapable.

Venus at 28 degrees of Libra is conjunct asteroid Eugenisis, which could shed light on some rather strange “cross-overs” of all kinds, and I mean all kinds. I think I will leave these up to the imagination along with the observation of current world events by those who are reading this. Since the square between Saturn and Neptune is separating but still in effect, we cannot jump to conclusions yet about whether these crossovers are positive or negative, and the emphasis in Libra necessitates neutrality in some ways. This is especially true in situations where disillusionment and obsession is reaching or has just reached a peak, making it difficult to see the forest for the trees.

The day begins with the Moon in Gemini is in trine to Pallas Athene in Aquarius, highlighting the strength of the Feminine being expressed through various means. The Moon then moves into a sextile with Eris (the Dark Feminine) and Uranus in Aries, which although a fleeting aspect is part of an ongoing theme involving Eris that began in June and will last until Spring of 2017. This theme includes radical social change in relation to feminine principles – their suppressions, explosions and expressions. The day comes to a close with an opposition between the Moon and Mars and the Galactic Center, which is to say, BAM baby, BAM. And totally truthfully, I wrote that before I checked and found out the Moon will literally be in conjunction with the asteroid BAM. So there you have it. Whatever BAM means to you!

Meanwhile, I am peacefully enjoying the harmonious brutality of fast and furious metallic shredding while sipping a hot cup of tea during Venus’s late degrees through Libra, as her consort Mars makes his way through the late degrees of Sagittarius. What can I say…I really love music, both classical styles and some of those considered viciously hardcore. Guess it’s a Libran thing.

Pisces Lunar Eclipse 2016

I am a bit behind on today’s penumbral Lunar eclipse report…but given that the full moon just occurred 24 degrees of Pisces, opposite of a Retrograde Mercury in Virgo it seems just as well (please pardon my tardiness). Dreams, visions, memories, and heightened emotional and spiritual states have been the themes building up to this cosmic release. The Moon was in conjunction with Chiron, which has been triggering the awareness of pain that was buried within the depths of our souls, from this and past lives.

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Originally, the ruling planet of Pisces was Jupiter. Later
when Neptune was discovered it became the co-ruler. The Jupiterian expansiveness is in effect on so many levels and dimensions it can be difficult to discern what is coming/going, and where any of it is leading or landing. Neptune also has a way of going and going, like Alice down the rabbit hole, to a place or state of complete and utter mystery. Saturn is still separating from its year-long square to Neptune, leaving us with much to reflect upon yet not much form to work with.

Pisces is symbolized by the two fish swimming opposite of each other, sometimes with the appearance of a yin-yang. Like the sign of Libra, where Pisces ruling planet Jupiter now transits, Pisces is very much concerned with peaceful solutions and resolution. Inherent is the understanding that there is always more to life than what meets the eye. The Equinox falls on September 22nd, when the Sun moves into Libra, the day after Mercury goes Direct at 14 degrees of Virgo in a trine five days before Pluto turns Direct at 14 degrees of Capricorn on the 26th. We currently have the opportunity to look beyond appearances and truly see what is going on beneath the surface of a thing, relationship or situation that has been causing frustration for a long time.

When the emotional climate gets too intense to bear it can be helpful to stand back for a moment and view one’s own life as they would that of a stranger’s or a character on television…

What is the funniest, most ridiculous thing somebody ever said or called you with great passion/anger in their voice? True story here: “You’re nothing but a selfish prick!”

But you know what? It ultimately helped me to be a better person, because I stood taller and more confident than before. What’s great is I can laugh about it now, although at the time I responded in shock. I’m not sure what’s sillier – that someone said this to me, or that I reacted in shock. That was quite a long time ago. In recent months I’ve had similar encounters, with the opportunity to respond differently to  crazy projections.

The Piscean theme of purification also indicates this is an optimal time for clearing space both physically and energetically. This can be done with the use of essential oils, burning herbs, healing water treatments (steamrooms, saunas, baths, etc), flower essences, mantras, and many other tools.

Speaking of Flower Essences, I am available to make custom blends for internal or external use. The new ebook Flower Spirit Medicine will become available in print in late October. Send me a note if you’re interested in winning a copy of the ebook version (names will be drawn on the Equinox!) 🙂