“And so castles made of sand, fall in the sea, eventually” – Jimi Hendrix

Having stolen both material and immaterial goods, Saturn’s square to Neptune has come and gone like a thief in the night…a very long and dark night stretched over the time span of one year. The exact dates of its three major peaks were November 26, 2015, June 18, 2016, and September 10, 2016.

Saturn, the builder of form has been transiting truth-seeking Sagittarius since December 23 2014 until December 19th of 2017. Neptune, the bringer of dreams has been in the sign of its own domain, Pisces since February 2012 until 2025. While Saturn’s attention is placed in structure, Neptune’s is upon its dissolution.

Saturn rules sticks and stones, bricks and bones, the tables we dine upon. Neptune rules rivers, tears, imaginary monsters and Immaculate Conception. Saturn may lengthen but Neptune will spread. If Saturn has found truth in Sagittarius, Neptune in Pisces may have easily distorted it.

The struggle that has been faced with these two planets in a metaphorical arm wrestling match is the struggle that each of us have faced or will face at some point in life. It is the struggle against forces much greater than ourselves, or of being forced into a battle we know that we will lose but must fight nonetheless. It is the thankless job that must be done. It is the helpless dying who must be fed and administered medicine, even as they decline. It is the gray blur between black and white, right and wrong, moral and immoral. It is, for Americans, the humiliating social collapse marked by Democratic and Republican parties both having apparently gone off the deep end. It is the fear of losing everything, but waking up each day with everything still seemingly intact. It is the kind of torture that is inflicted with one of the worst tools in existence – that of threat.

What just happened?

When one is busy trying to evade the attack of something, they often overlook or under-look what is coming at them from a different direction. Their blind spot makes them vulnerable prey. They are suddenly caught unawares, but have to spend considerable time extricating themselves from what has become a complex trap.

As a child or at any time in life, did you ever experience a delayed reaction to an injustice done to you? If someone suddenly punched you from behind on a sunny afternoon at the playground, were you too stunned to respond? Later, your hurt and shock turned to anger, but it was too late. Your attacker was nowhere in sight. This did happen to me. The delayed fear experienced from this kind of attack can potentially sabotage future relationships and put a person constantly on guard.

Others may have encountered the misfortune of being robbed, or even raped, physically or psychically. At the time it occurred one might have been unable to respond. By the time one figured out how to defend oneself, the damage was done. If something like this happened to you, when the feeling of vengefulness finally arose, most likely you found your powerless yet again, without an outlet for your rage, feeling as though you had nobody to blame but yourself.

The battle between the two forces of Saturn and Neptune doesn’t involve fair play. Nobody gets to prepare. They only get to recover, if they survive. That means those who are the perpetrators of threats and violence don’t get off scot-free, no matter how things temporarily appear on the surface.

Kronos and Poseidon

In Greek mythology, Kronos (Saturn) swallowed his son Poseidon (Neptune) but Zeus (Jupiter) came to  Poseidon’s aid by making Kronus drink an elixir that caused him to regurgitate his son. Here I will take a moment to say thank you, Jupiter in Libra which entered on September 9, the day before Saturn’s last square this year with Neptune. I’m sure Kronos had some perfectly rational (in his mind) reasons for swallowing his son, mainly the fear that he should become more powerful than himself. This story in itself offers us much food for thought. Who is having the last laugh in all of this? Fire burns, earth disintegrates, air disperses, but water,  that mystery element overcomes all.

A deeply afflicted Saturn might want all the power, all the money, all the results of others’ hard labor for himself. An afflicted Neptune, ruling poisonous liquid injections has been reflected back to us in the form of forced vaccines that destroy immunity, crops saturated by Roundup (glyphosate) that cause mutilations, and continued Fukushima radiation-contaminated seas and shores.

Dissolution

The aftermath of the Saturn-Neptune square is somewhat like the mess we have to clean up after frantically looking for something, or after there has been a raid. Objects, furniture, papers, cloth, treasures, words and their meanings have been strewn about like heaps of indecipherable trash.

Neptune often does not seem to discriminate in which boundaries it dissolves. When going along with the flow, we can pretend that our intentions are noble or compassionate, but underlying motives will eventually be revealed. Some of the walls we built around each other in the past were unhealthy and needed to come down during 2015. Only after the walls came down did we realize how inhibiting they were. Who or what was difficult to understand, trust or relate to may have become as close as family. Or, the opposite. Some discovered they were literally sleeping with the enemy.

Delayed reactions may have come in relation to having been deceived and violated. The psyche of the human collective has indeed been violated repeatedly through the centuries. In today’s world, increased manipulation through the media has replaced much of the overt violence of previous wars. The lies are so twisted that people believe they need to remain safely locked into the victimhood that they find themselves in. They fight for, rather than against crimes that keep them enslaved.

And so, this is what it’s come to. Now we sit/stand/or lie in the aftermath of things we did and didn’t have any control over, all mixed together as one. The thought could be sickening enough to make one vomit. It could also be just the wakeup call that is needed in order for genuine, voluntary change to occur.

Find an Outlet

One of the worst things to live with is constant fear, and second to that is all of the toxic build up that occurs around it. The clutter. The stuckness. The sickness. The hate. When our fears are faced one by one, many of the toxins have a way of dissipating or exiting our bodies, minds and spirits. Sometimes we need to find and utilize an outlet for our fear, our anger, and our deep hurt. That outlet could be a punching bag, an isolated mountain, a pillow, a letter that is written, or some form of art that expresses what cannot otherwise be expressed.

If this calls to you, find that outlet and make it a priority. What’s amazing is just how much energy becomes available to the one who has become free of the baggage of irrational and even a few rational, yet excess fears. Don’t ever let yourself be diminished by toxic fear and threats ever again. You are meant to shine!